Don’t go. Don’t leave me.
No matter how many times I think about it,
It will be hard to forget you.
I don’t think I can forget you.
I can't take my breath.

Light sticks -
I break one every night. It's like how my heart's breaking. Bit by bit, part by part. Until the pain spreads to every part of me. Light sticks give me a sense of safety, like nothing can hurt me as long as it's still lighted.
Insomnia. I can't sleep in peace, tossing and turning.

C, you tell me you wanna hurt yourself, you ask me to bite you. Telling me how you keep wanting to be in pain. Damn, do you know how i can't take people being suicidal? After i get angry, you apologise and all's forgiven. Later, you'll tell me how much you want me to bite you and beg me to let you be in pain. Fuck, just stop. All this. A cycle going round and round. It isn't funny, really.

Smilesmile, Thank you for yesterday, i was happy with just sitting there and being with you.
But, i know things will never be the same. Will it? Yeah, it won't. Like you said, i know i want to do what i want, but i can't. I have to do the right thing. Can't help thinking how life would be if i hadn't been in this school, if i hadn't been fifteen. If we had never met. IF.

Ah, OBS OBS. So many things to pack.

WAS LOVING YOU A SIN? WHATEVER WILL HAPPEN, LET IT HAPPEN.
EVEN I'M NOT TOO SURE..
new past