Practically recapping yesterday :
Went to school , had party , sang love story for miss wong , She was touched . WOW . LOL .
Then went to IJBT alone .. I cried on the mrt , there were so many things flashing by . Both of them take me for backup friends . It was like this in primary school , in secondary school too .. Neverending pain.
Now im looking at her display picture , i get it. Really. Nobody wants me. My parents only want results . My family only wants me to be good . Nobody wants my happiness . Materialism i get , inside , i dont get . Friends , hah .
__ doesnt want me anymore . I know it even if __ doesnt say it . I drowned myself in sleep last night . 14 hours of eternal happiness , i thought . I woke up and knew it was unreal , i was not happy anymore . I could only have it temporarily . IF i wanted it to last , i would have to die .
Talked to teachers , laughed on the outside . Nobody knows how i feel . I refuse to let them know .
Went lot 1 .. Played at skypark , ate with alot of old classmates .
Jamie , melissa.w , corinne , amanda , siying , jiahui , lyanne , nee yen , izabel , sarcthy , trishala , damini , sheryl , ida , valerie , jacob .. I might have missed some out . Idk anymore .
Wanted watch movie but i went home instead . tired . Slept from 5pm till 10pm . Then took out contact lenses , slept from 10.30pm - 8.30 am .. today .
Now im feeling down and sad and bored . Gonna watch some anime , maybe habbo abit . Well , tatas .

♥LittleMissDOWNINTHEDUMPS.
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