Girl.
I just found out how much i actually mean to you. After 2 years of friendship.
To be honest, if you simply do not want me to be in your life, voice it out. I know that nobody's perfect and that we all have flaws of our own. However, i thought that we looked past each other's imperfection and forgave everything. At least that is what happened in my case. I should have known your childlike personality will never change, will it?
Foolish me.
From the moment you kept me in the dark as to when you would be leaving, to the moment you stop telling me things at all. What a fool i've been, to be blind and not see the obvious. I just want to tell you this. We've shared so much but the most memorable thing i recall was the nights you would call me and cry. For any other reason, i'd stay there with you, until you feel better. Or at least, until you've got another companion and find no more cause for me to stay on the line.
When you throw a tantrum, i would do the same. We are like two fireballs. Cooling down only after a period of time, and forgiveness follows.
Two hot-headed people, will never stay forever, right?

Whenever you had a problem, a news to share, i was here. To comfort, or at least just to lend you my ear. That was what it was, up until the start of the damned holidays. After the holidays started, everything went crazy. You're not here to listen to my troubles. I have them too, i'm not perfect, not wonderwoman. But, guess what. You're never here. How selfish, selfish indeed.

Would you ever know how it feels like, to find out secrets about people? The two people you love so much? These secrets, that actually came out from the mouths of third parties? That is the best part of it all..
How betrayed i'm feeling. We used to be so happy, you know? Girl, i'm sorry if i have ever let you feel abandoned. I am not sure of how many times i left you alone. The only thing i'm absolutely certain of is that, you threw me away, broke my heart more than i did to you.

Claiming i was the top priority.
Claiming that our friendship would last.
Promising so many things that is impossible now.

I knew it, now that we're in different classes;
Friendship, a word made up of a mere 10 alphabets but, it's such a big word. Such a painful word. I just pray for you to study hard, to keep your future safe. It's alright to not want to talk to me about anything; go to another person. But, please. Do not ruin your future, your studies for a naive reason.

To me, you're the first ever person to approach me when everyone else hated me.
To me, you're naive.
To me, you're my best friend.
Although i might have other friends, you should know that our level of friendship is not on par with others. If you don't, i only have to say that i am utterly disappointed and, the mutual trust is not there.

I am not afraid to let people know who you are.
Not being hypocritical and acting all emotional with words such as these.
Jessendryl.
I'll love you, as a friend, as a sister.
No matter who you become, what you do.
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